12th June 2008 (Thursday)

Im feeling so emotional these days.... Probably due to having to juggle work and studies at the same time.... At times i wonder, did i made a wrong move to take up this job? Am i really capable to manage it? Or is it just luck or maybe favoritism from the boss?

Im totally drained from work. I have got exams coming this Monday, and i have not started to study.... Meetings after meetings, conferences after conferences, work keep piling up.... there is literally no time for study at all.... How i miss my old job where i take calls from customers. Day by day, no stress, office hours over, pack my bag and go.... Totally no worries....

While i was going home today, i overheard a couple's conversation. How should i describe them? Dressed in T-shirts and shorts, abit to the plump side, and personality wise, hmmm.... I dun wanna be rude or anything, maybe i could say that they are just a simple minded couple. Im not out to mock at them or anything, in a matter of fact, im envious of them. Living a simple life, with not much worries. And most importantly happy...

Any way, i was saying, i overheard their conversation, the husband is telling his wife "老婆，这份工你一定要做下去，老公现在没有办法养你。等老公赚多多钱以后你就不用作工了。还有你的EzLink Card我已经帮你Topup十块钱了，用完了跟我说，我再帮你 Topup" I even hear that the wife wanting to get a cellphone, and the husband is saying he will definately buy for her once he saves enough money, and the wife happily said "OK" and replied "我爱你老公". Then the thought of being simple can also be so sweet and happy, those words really touched my heart.

How life can be so simple and happy if money is never an issue in your life. You begin simple, you live simple. People are grown too attached to this materalistic world, we can never get satisfied. We got a decent job but is still complaining our job sucks, we get to wear designer clothings but we yearn for more, we are dining in restaurants and we are complaining the food is lousy.... How life can be so simple if we don't begin to have all those things...

Thinking back, comparing myself to the couple, i feel i have nothing.... and they have everything in the world.... Or should i say, at least they have one another.....