Today (11 April 2005) like all Mondays, i expected it to be a really busy day for me. But to my surprise, after clearing all the weekend stuffs everything seemed so peaceful and not much work after that. And so i decided to surf the net for awhile. While doing so, from out of the blue flashbacks of the days before the (6 March 2005) just keep coming to my mind, i was feeling so confused and scared at the point of time. I know i need to think of something fast calm myself down. Immediately i searched my desk to look for something to do, so as to keep my mind occupied. Not long after that calls from Customers start coming in, thats when i know that my mind can now forcus on work alone.

No doubt 5 weeks had passed, but im still coping with what had happened ... It all seems like nothing much had changed, except for feeling less anticipated when the week is coming to an end. To me now, weekends are the days which i hope it will not arrive.

Whenever the week is coming to an end, i'll be feeling so afraid cos i know i need to find ways to keep myself occuppied. If not when i wake up during the weekend mornings, i'll be like a "Lost Soul" with no sense of direction, and my thoughts will start to run wild.

But 1 thing for sure, i'm not facing all these alone. I'm glad that i still have Shawn, he's BEST PAL that i could ever ask for. I remembered he once told me "When joy is shared with a friend, its doubled and when you share hurt, it will be halved"